something more

it's one of those nights where i feel some emotion that i can't quite give a name.

it's an emotion i feel relatively often and it's something like this:

it's not sadness that digs deep and produces sharp pain or anything of that sort -- it's more of a sadness producing what i feel is a longing and yearning for something more. in the moment, i want to tell friends i love them and text someone i haven't talked to in a long time that i'm dying to see. or something like that. i long to give a big ole warm cozy hug and hold hands (i don't think about this in particular as much anymore, but sometimes...). 

overall, i think it's a deep, innate desire to know and be known -- to love and be loved. fully. no restraint, no separation, no hurry, no unsatisfied craving. nothing shameful. just love as it was created to be.

Love that our Creator Himself is. 

even the sweetest affection and the best of conversations are temporary and fleeting, leaving one only wanting them more. so as is clear, there has to be something that all this points to. and as i discussed in my first post, i believe in my heart of hearts that it is stemming from the eternity placed in my heart (the eternity present in every human's!!) that is pointing to the Author and Perfector of our faith with whom we will soon experience eternity satisfied fully in His complete and perfect love.

And praise God we don't have to wait until then to know satisfaction in Him :)

"Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good!
    Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him!" - Psalm 34:8 ESV

love you :)! 

-william